cinta berok

today's topic - CINTA. 

if i were about to tell you my love story, it all started when i was 19 years old. my first love, to a matriculation peer (bukan masa sekolah ya), bersemangatnye masa tu. first time couple. and first time i learned to go to cinema. terok-terok. masa putus tu i didn't eat for 3 days, masuk ward segala. terok gile.. but in the end i am now married and expecting child and he just got married to a lady last week.

i don't know how monkey sounds. but if it's puppy love, the love should sound "woof woof" alamak... spoil.

puppy love, monkey love, pig love or whatso ever that they call; perlu ke semua ni? i've lived for 25 years and i tried to recall my memory, rasanya takde lah yang kawin ngan puppy love dia. at the end dia tak kawin kawin or kawin ngan somebody who never had any connections with his/her childhood ATAU somebody yang takkan pernah kita terpikir pun akan jadi pasangan orang tu. so i can say that puppy love is somekind of a bullshit jugak la. so pada orang yang tak hot and had no puppy love masa sekolah, don't feel sad or anything. tak rugi pape tak untung pape pun. 

eww to people yang bercinta terok terok masa sekolah ni. come on lah. there's so many things to be done during your teenage years. if you think that if you didn't have your pakwe or makwe during your teenage years means you are not hot or you're ugly or stupid or anything - that is so damn narrow minded. zaman ni bukan macam zaman my maktok where you have to find your spouse when you turned 16. depa dulu yelah, terus kawin umo 18 dah dapat anak sulung. and you? PMR pun tak lepas tapi dah terok terok bercinta. eww sangat. 

i am not against the idea of love actually. well i know some girls and boys developed their hormone gatal lebih aktif berbanding normal so what can we do kan. depends. but what matters most is what you do and potray during the period of being higher in love. 

bila dah hangat dalam cinta mesti nak jumpa. tapi mestikah jumpa di sekolah? dating dalam kelas dan di celah-celah rak buku kat library or kat pintu kelas? simpan lah hasrat hati tu bawak balik dan dating puas puas kat padang polo or midvalley or genting highlands. bila dah hangat bercinta mesti rindu. bila rindu mesti nak sms. so bawak hp ke sekolah, dengan alasan ni guna nak contact mak bapak. sedangkan you misscall your mak bapak and mak bapak call you balik and the rest of the credit you guna nak sms or call balak or awek you. padahal dah tau peraturan sekolah dilarang bawak hp tapi bawak jugak. that is what i called bercinta tapi menyusahkan orang. siapa susah? warden la. nak spotcheck lah. nak rampas lah. nak simpan lagi harta meredak hampa tu. ingat senang nak jadi warden. that is why i could never be a warden. salute lah kat warden-warden sedia ada ni. 

bila dah hangat bercinta, apa jadi pada pasangan you, you bertanggungjawab (eww macam dah kawin plak kan. geli) misalnya kalau la awek you nak balik kampung, you kena hantar kalau tak nanti ade mamat lain ngorat kat tengah jalan. kalau balak you kena marah ngan cikgu addmath pasal tak buat homework, you pun kena anti cikgu tu pasal dia cikgu poyo marah balak you. what the hell semua ni? macam sial la woi. kalau nak betul-betul tunjuk responsibility, tunjukkan pada diri sendiri dulu. score 8A in PMR, 9A+ in SPM pastu shake tangan tok kadi and amik responsibility tu secara sah and halal. baru jantan, dol... 

i found out that some old sayings were true. misalnya, kalau ada sesuatu tu jangan tunjuk sangat. nanti hilang. kids nowadays megah la tunjuk cinta and sayang, jaja kat fb, youtube, myspace and tepi jalan. murahannye. kalau dok ilysm sangat pastu dapat kawin ngan orang yang sama takpe gak. but we'll never know what future has for us. perasaan yang ada simpan-simpan la sikit. and show the feels and passion on a right place and medium. kalau dok terok terok sangat, kalau tak jadi, orang simpati sikit je. or else orang akan cakap "tu lah bercinta teruk sangat padan muka" 

for me, bercinta lah tak salah. but make it look moderate sudah la. simpan all the sweetness and excitement for your marriage. bila you kawin, and this is the first time you bercinta terok terok, sumpah, sweet sangat. but when you already have the feel and you have to feel it again for another guy, tak sama macam yang kali pertama. and as a human, we'll tend to compare. and it is not a good thing to do. habiskanlah masa sekolah dengan kawan-kawan. jadilah seorang remaja yang menikmati kebebasan. teenage and childhood should be spent with friends. when the right time comes; your life should be spent with a girl/boyfriend. when the time hits; masa yang mewajibkan you untuk berkahwin, then get a husband or a wife. zaman persekolahan bukan zaman mencari pasangan. you know a bunch of people, but you'll never know. dicelah-celah orang-orang itu mungkin terselit jodoh you. but, you can never catch someone and say "ni lah jodoh aku" while you're still 14 years old. funny lah, rasa nak pelempang pun ade gak.  

suka hati you all lah kan. if nak bukti that what i said wasn't a rubbish, make a poll to a bunch of married couples. berapa ramai yang kawin ngan puppy love diaorg? hahaha. i don't eat too much salt, but i know people who disagree with me now eat lesser salt than me. and one day they will write the same thing like this. i am speaking of experience, bukan nak taji siapa-siapa. tapi sapa makan asam dia rasa masam. bye!

kongsi rezeki tambah rezeki.

this is a rotten idea but still i feel like writing my wits out. 

one night of this week me and my adik2 went out for dinner. dataran ipoh - a place yang very open, yelah gerai-gerai je. but actually we can get really good food there, especially char kuey tiau daging. restoran indulgence mana ade menatang ni kan. so takyah la nak attitude sangat kalau nak makan a cheap good food. 

well nothing there. just tengok gelagat orang je when suddenly a busker approached our gerai. he sang kamalia by sweet charity. not as good as ramli sarip in fact dia pun pakai gitar kapok je. however we all terhibur je simply because none from our stall chased him away or even throw eggs on him. i reminisced our time when we had a big family feast kat kl dulu. my uncles paid a busker to sing to us, just for us. well ok what. kalau kat restoran mahal they have this fella playing violin for you, gerai can also have what. even it's no mozart or whatsoeva, but still it is an entertainment.

mamat ni nyanyi ngan penuh soul. good then. and biasa lah at the end of the show, buskers will collect money. and that moment touched my heart till now. he approached each table with his guitar bag. some put money in, which is ok for me. but some just ignore him while he was standing there like a beggar. hey come on man, hulur la barang seringgit dua kat dia. tak luak lah duit kau yang berkepuk-kepuk tu. kalau dah bakhil sangat, i bet we must have coins, seposen dua. why not share? 

some might think - duit aku aku punya pasal lah kan. but the money wasn't yours pun. it was meant to be shared with others. tu rezeki dari Allah kot. and personally i think a busker deserves to be given something. yelah bukan senang nak tebalkan muka main and nyanyi depan orang kan. kau boleh ke buat? then some might think - sapa suh dia main kat sini. aku tak perlukan hiburan. blah jauh2 la. well, yang kau gi makan situ sapa suruh? gi lah makan kat mcd ke, johnny ke. kelas sikit. or kalau sengkek sangat gi lah masak sendiri kat umah. oh come on. rezeki Allah ada di mana-mana. di situ lah tempat busker cari rezeki. 

i think the people like this busker, orang buta yang jual tisu, orang buta yang main keyboard depan globe silk store tu lebih mulia dari orang yang muka stock sympathy and come to you with a letter saying "Disahkan orang bernama si polan bin polan menghidap penyakit tuuuuut" and dia mintak sumbangan. at least these peeps i mentioned above BERUSAHA for money. so they deserve to get something for what they done. dari tak buat apa tapi harapkan simpati. tapi not fair lah if i go against the beggar without knowing their true probs. but as i said, rezeki Allah kenalah share ngan umat manusia ni. bukan hak kau sorang. so why not? bagi jelah kalau dah dia mintak sumbangan dari kau sikit. hulur jelah brapa yang kau rasa patut dan mampu.

well. bukan nak marah or benci beggars. i was taught by my parents to give away even though the beggar wasn't a convincing beggar at all. sebab among those people yang ask for sympathy to, we don't know he/she might be malaikat yang sedang menguji kita. and i hold to that saying. come anybody in any form. kalau dia perlukan pertolongan, tolong jelah. tak luak apa pun. duit boleh cari. tapi doa orang yang kita tolong tu boleh ke kutip kat depan halaman rumah?

why? because one day we might beg for help too. and bila kita wat sesuatu utk orang pastu harap dia bagi kita rezeki ngan apa yang kita buat tu tup tup orang tu cakap "sape suruh kau buat?" mmg rasa nak kasi pelempang je kan. so why not share with others. tak salah kot rezeki nanti bertambah.

hmm. actually benda ni is not a teachable knowledge. learn by heart and soul. kena pikir. macam kesedaran sivik. ye idak?

bye.

the love of what are you doing.

oh my so long since last entry.

i still got more than 250 SPM scripts to mark but not in the mood yet. at some moment of my life now, i was wondering what the heck am i doing with these bundles of papers while i will only gain about 800MYR; while the whole december of mine will be spent being nerdy in the room, marking papers. 

but then my senses woke up. this is all for my self betterment. yeah, like if anyone want to yell at me and say i am not good, i can spit out some fact that "aku marking SPM so i know what i am doing." i am going to be somebody one day. and i know this is the platform. i am going to be somebody, somewhere someday. 

i was known as a girl with no permanent ambition by my family. yelah, kejap nak jadi penyanyi la (perasan suara sedap), laywer la (sebab dulu suka debate ngan orang), nak jadi architect (sebab rasa cam cool je kerja ni), semua kerja nak; tolak doctor ngan engineer je sbb cliche sangat. i was still floating back in my schooling years sampailah matriculation. 

but my wake up call was the end of matric. i realised that i can't go in any field with maths and science (except bio because it requires more memorising and understanding compared to calculation). so when i was about to fill my UPU form, all was no science subject. and the greatest shock was when i filled Ijazah Sarjana Muda Pendidikan as my major choice. i put English as my priority and the first choice was USM and thank youo Allah, i got my first choice. till today i never regret my choice even my mak kept on telling me how bad my choice was (because she was a teacher before).

at times i regretted being a teacher. yeah i do. yelah, work could be a mayhem at times. while you're trying to please and keep people's head up on you when at time you failed doing that - i got sick with all these at times. but i realise i couldn't be perfect because i am not a robot or a prophet. i will be disappointing sometimes. and please shida. that is normal. i was trying to munch this fact all the time. but when i can't that's why i felt so scattered. 

but at the 2nd year of my career journey, i started to love the gist of it. dulu, i love it all because of the students. but i realised that students can't be sweet forever. so when i learn and learn and know my work well, God, i have fallen in love. my work isn't that bad. except for the bad times. but when i try to embrace my what i am doing now without bothering about my surrounding, yeah it feels good. 

now i know i have made a right decision. but how could that be right?

by trying to love it. and made yourself comfortable with it. prinsip yang sama dengan tak kenal maka tak cinta. wow. now i started to see how malay proverb works. 

i hope what i am feeling towards my career now will be on forever. cheers to my upcoming 3rd year of service. 

friends + work = adulthood.

aku cucuk mata kau!

hey hey kau ingat kau korang leh cucuk? no no nooooo...

alamak tak jadi cucuk. laki aku mesej.

hahaha.. whatever.

aik, tadi akak-akak beriya je nak gocoh.

rindu kawan-kawan.

gurau kasar but that's our way.

HAPPY HOLS.

hello ipoh. hello mak abah. hello kertas SPM 1119.

mood kerja tiada henti sepanjang cuti. 

love. byebye.

sakit punggung?

watak-watak:

customer buasir 

waiter

customer butthurt

full story:

waiter : selamat datang ke gerai tuuuut. menu special hari ini : nasi ekonomi berkuah cili boh, telur mata kerbau dengan cili burung dan sambal belacan cili jalapeno. tapi untuk orang yang berani sahaja. kalau kecut perut jangan cubaaa. 

customer buasir : oh i loike... nasi ekonomi satu untuk saya dan awek saya. ermm. saya nak sambal belacan cili jalapeno satu. then kopi panas satu. air suam satu. thank you. 

waiter : wow, tuan pastinya orang yang berani. saya cuma offer tak sangka tuan mahukannya. tapi amaran saya sekali lagi. jika tuan tak tahan pedas, tuan tidak perlu mencuba hidangan ini. 

customer buasir : saya dah terdatang sini, awek saya yang cadangkan. manalah saya tahu. walaupun saya rasa gerai ini agak whatever tapi saya pun tak tahu kenapa saya datang ke sini. tak apa lah saya makan juga lah. 

tiba-tiba...

customer butthurt : hey you. you ingat you bagus sangat ke asik nak jual cili? sedar lah sikit ni gerai je and you tu waiter je. low class. pehal asik nak jual makanan yang pedas? tak pikir pasal orang buasir ke. jaga lah kesihatan bontot orang! takde otak ke nak pikir? satu lagi, you ingat you cantik, you ingat you bagus nak jual makanan pedas? hey you listen here. tak payah nak jual cili dengan tujuan nak menambah manusia yang menderita sakit buasir okay. you jaga diri you and gerai you sudah. tak payah nak tunjuk bagus just because you are selling sambal belacan jalapeno. this society doesn't need rubbish like this you idiot! no moral!

customer buasir : *dalam dilema. betul jugak yek.

waiter : then why bother to come here? berambus la! suka hati gerai aku lah nak jual apa. 

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aww... butthurt butthhurt sekalian. jika meluat dengan kata-kata saya don't bother to read. saya memang suka perli sebab kalau cakap terus terang nanti kecederaan yang dialami para polan yang menjadi subjek tu akan bertambah buruk dari butthurt lalu saya akan didakwa, masuk penjara dan mungkin ke tali gantung? 

hahaha... whatever. get a life la butthurts. 

i just want to say "ade aku kisah" and you should say the same too if you hate what you read. thanks and babai!

*entry ni ada makna walaupun merepek. 

ASRAMA ku ASRAMA mu jua. up for it babeh?

i am working today. and i thought it was going to be a *pfft day but alhamdulillah everything turned out good. 

today we have to conduct an interview for F1 students who applied for SABDA. my pair was Mr. Moharni. i thought he was going to be scary, but it turned out to be he's the one yang softer and lovable compared to me. pelik. baik je dia cakap, while i was garang siap beliak-beliak mata lagi. poor them. (who got my room)

i started with asking "please introduce yourself." dua tiga orang asked me back "nak jawab dalam BM ke BI?", dua tiga orang terus answered back in BM. quite number yang paham soalan iaitu menjawab semula dalam BI dan seorang dari sekolah tuuuut jawab "tak paham." and i was like WHAT?? OMG mcm mana kau dapat 5 A, sayang?

next is "macam mana tau tentang SABDA?" and the answers were kind of cool - cikgu bagitau, internet, kawan-kawan. tapi ada satu yang paling menarik - sekolah ni paling bagus dalam daerah ni sebab tu saya tau. woooho. i was proud sekejap. tak sangka people NOTICE the victory of this school kan. 

next. "kenapa pilih SABDA bukan SEMESTI?" and the answers were a bit erkk... some answered - "sekolah ni nampak best" (urgh, do you know that you are judging the book by its cover, hunny?). ade yg jawab "kakak/abang saya kat sana so saya nak try kat sini" (try? this is not a trial and error kot!) and satu yang paling takleh blah - "because the qualification of SEMESTI is higher than this school." WHAT? maybe dia yakin yang dia SURELY will get into this school kot. ok ok whatever. lepas habis interview me and Mr. Moharni were giggling even though we felt a bit offended. whatever la macha...

other questions were problem solving. and i got ALL cliche answers. by the way nak buat macam mana kan? baru darjah 6. KBKK tak berapa berkembang sangat. i was looking for an extraordinary answers but seems my search tak dapat goal yg tepat. takpelah. 

sayang sekolah ni. korang tak sayang lantak korang la.

i don't know. i hope to see a face yang betul2 enthusiast nak enroll in SBP but they look sooo timid. macam tak yakin yang whatever happen here they must stay and survive in this school. i don't want to choose a bunch of people yang finally will opt out from this school just because they cannot handle conflict. tapi ntah la. ade yang tak minat pun. came because the parents asked to. oh come on. these kind of people won't survive here. 

i wonder what people expect before they made a decision to enter a school. semua orang akan jawab nak jadi cemerlang. tapi yang dok ada ni cukup cemerlang ke. and the way to cemerlang won't be easy. i wonder will they ever be strong to be the one yang still standing?

gambar hiasan semata mata

hidup di asrama penuh mahupun maktab rendah sains bukan mudah. not everyone is ready for that, no matter how good they are in academic. well, life won't linger around academic je. you need soft skills. kalau ade soft skills tu then only it will develop a strong mental and heart than you can be the survivor. and we teachers cannot teach soft skills to you. it is your experience and previous life that will give you that. it is how and what you have been brought up by your parents and surrounding. how could we teach you all that?

hm... you decide your life. nak jadi apa jadilah. but be appropriate. kalau kita pelajar sekolah, jadi pelajar sekolah. kalau kita ketua rumah then behave like a ketua rumah. yes, all of us ade jiwa remaja. but it is all beyond our control kan... embrace your teenage souls appropriately and nobody will stop you. somehow, you might think kenapa lah semua orang tak paham kehendak korang sekarang? kenapalah kalau korang je takde yang baik semua buruk. sebab perkara yang buruk tu berlaku and people cannot stop from judging and talking about it. kita ni manusia ade mulut dan akal mestilah kita nampak sesuatu, kita pikir tentang sesuatu itu dan kita akan bercakap. kalu baik, baik lah. kalau buruk, buruk lah. 

and my principle, if i didn't do anything bad, why should i bother if people are talking bad about me? yang selalu sakit hati tu is because we do, we do it sikit je but people see us as a big bandit. pastu tension je semedang. cuba kalau kita tak buat. who cares about you? hidup pun aman je.

contoh : si X budak junior syok kat abang A, budak senior. fine fine jiwa muda memang biasa mcm tu. but if X asik ulang alik depan kelas A dan perbuatan itu dilihat oleh kakak G yang secara kebetulannya juga meminati abaang yang sama, kakak G mesti akan rasa "pehal budak ni gedik sangat?" tiba-tiba si abang A plak syok kat adik X pastu couple, kakak G sure menyirap pastu balik dorm mesti kutuk X kat member-member dorm dia. jadi bergantanglah bad talking ni. pastu pulak si A dan X ni dah syok bercinta sampai sehari tak jumpe leh mati wooo! so dating la tepi toilet, kat library, belakang kantin dan segala tempat yang rasa-rasa mcm line clear, nak mengubati rinduu. lalu pulak cikgu Z, nampak plak pigeon two one jolly ni baik punye bercinta. cikgu Z ni macam indifferent tapi dalam hati dia paling paling tak pun akan cakap "tolonglah. cinta monyet yang menggelikan lagi murah."  fine fine. takpelah kantoi ngan cikgu sporting apede hal? lalu pulak cikgu D yang merupakan seorang warden. dan cikgu D menghadiahkan satu pelempang baik punyerr sekali ngan package maki hamun yang extra hot and spicy. menyirap je X dan A. maki dan sumpah seranah cikgu D, pastu bandingkan nape cikgu D lebih sudu dari kuah sedangkan cikgu Z cool je. menyampah lah cikgu D poyo! balik dorm si A dan X sambung kutuk cikgu D poyo dan melancarkan kempen anti cikgu D. kawan-kawan pun join lah sebab rasa cam poyo je cikgu D ni tak paham jiwa remaja and cikgu D ni berhati purbakala. berbakul-bakul dok kutuk cikgu D. dalam kelas dia belajar tak paham. nape lah cikgu D ajar tak paham? cikgu D ni tak  pandai mengajar. baik tido je dalam kelas dia. menyampah la, nak tukar kelas la. cikgu D plak dapat sense yang mengatakan bebudak nyampah ngan dia so dia pun bukak cerita kat kantin pasal budak-budak tido dalam kelas dan pasal budak-budak couple ni. cikgu lain pun menggeleng-geleng kepala dan seterusnya open table pasal budak-budak yang ada kena mengena dengan diaorang puulak seperti J, W dan S yang bawak handphone ke sekolah, biadap dan sebagainya. and the cycle goes on. sebab kita manusia kan. kalau kita batu kan senang.

ce bayangkan kalau tiada cerita ini. pasti ada cerita lain yang lebih baik kan? atau lebih buruk. tapi mungkin ke berlaku si sekolah sains dan maktab rendah sains? probability nya kurang la. 

cerita di atas cuma analogi. tak perlu terasa jika tiada kena mengena dengan anda. saya juga dari sekolah berasrama. cerita ini mungkin diadaptasi dari kisah di MRSM Kuala Berang. so who eat chili they will feel hot. babai!

you and us. students and teachers. *entry pedas, jika hati tisu jangan baca.

another entry bout my career. sorry.

today masa pergi makan ngan member, she told me that this teacher, "X"complaint about getting the same class for next year. this X said that the class ade satu 'badi' yang kurang baik lah gitu.. my friend told me that the students of this class daringly mintak nak tukar cikgu yang mengajar subjek tu, just sebab diaorang tak suka cara cikgu tu. i was like, WHAT??

ok fine. i wasn't a good teacher myself. i know ade je students hated me. banyak je yg jeered me from behind. but do i look like i care? hell no. but personally i think tindakan nak mintak tukar cikgu sebab cikgu tu tak best atau tak bagus tu memanglah terlampau KURANG AJAR. i wonder how they could survive life and jd someone successful in life kalau macam ni lah sikapnya. yelah. semua nak kena ikut kehendak and kepala engkau je. go and make jupiter your habitat, that's better.

tak ada cikgu yang perfect. so do you as students. bagus sangat ke korang? if you say that "I'm good because i got 5 A for UPSR and 8 A for PMR", i just want to say "boleh blah" sebab i pun got that kind of results dari dulu and at least i'm better since i'm a graduate. kalau aku tak bagus aku tak masuk universiti. tapi kauorang tu dijamin ke masuk U? pikir-pikirkan. bagus sangat ke korang kalau homework pun tak siap? bagus sangat ke korang kalau buku pun korang takleh hormat; buang macam korang buang pembalut candy? bagus sangat ke kalau dengan cikgu salam pun berat nak bagi? bagus sangat ke kalau arahan cikgu pun korang tak ikut? double pikir ok.

kalau korang cakap "cikgu polan polan tu tak bagus sebab dia ajar tak paham" i think you should ask yourself what is the initial of the problem. personally i have to say you yang BENAK sebab dalam 30 orang classmates you tu, semua gagal ke sebab cikgu tu ajar? kalau you yang tak paham, means you lah bermasalah. ya betul, tak semua students tu kurang pandai. but tak semua cikgu tu bodoh kalau dia ajar you and you tak paham.

i mark exam papers. i know how is the A standard for public examinations. to put it in a simpler way, i have to say this : walaupun kau dapat A, kadang-kadang taraf kau tak capai pun level A (most, not ALL of you la. sapa makan cili rasa pedas, ok). so takyah la songeh sangat kot because the teachers are trying to lift you up from that so-so level to good tapi you think it is a crap just because you hate the teacher's way. noob sangat! i saw teachers study their subjects before they enter class. cikgu yang menjerit-jerit dalam kelas even they can't hit high notes just to make sure semua students dengar apa dia ajar. cikgu yang jerit kuat-kuat so you tak tido dalam kelas, nak capture attention. cikgu bawak masuk lab, tengok movies and videos to make learning interesting. cikgu yang photocopy and still photocopy notes and worksheet for you even you buang-buang je semua tu. cikgu yang mark homework tu walaupun you tak buat homework dia bagi. woohooo... that's big. kalau tak percaya, belajar rajin-rajin nanti jadi cikgu and you'll know what i am bullshitting here. ooohhhh, tu pun if you can tolerate with small salary la. kalau rasa nak hidup mewah, abaikan apa i cakap tadi, shut up and accept who we are.

during that conversation i straight away spit my words to them : "i do believe that a teacher's responsibility is to TEACH and make those kids a successful human, NOT to make them love us. sebab kita manusia and we can't make everyone happy with ourselves. mutual respect is the key. but does REAL mutual respect existed? maaf cakap lah, tahap sivik paling rendah pun kau tak berapa ade, so why do you expect from others to treat you better? aku mengandung dan bawak 4 beg, naik turun tangga. ade anyone OFFER help? don't think so.  kena mintak tolong baru nak tolong. i wonder what if they ride on bus and see a pregnant stranger, sah-sah tak tolong, for sure. so how do you think i should treat you? kiss your ass and fake a sweet smile, give you mountains of compliments for things you don't have. i have to say aku tak kuasa." my friend dah cuak terus tukar topik. well, i have to say i'm a bit emo bout this because i know how it feels to strive sooooo damn hard for the kids and still we are blamed for things we done. so, fine. ok fine, that's life.

guess what. i am just recalling and restating what my mom used to tell me last year. thanks mak, you were damn right. 

tak guna bijak pandai kalau sampah pun cikgu kena remind kau untuk kutip. double noob!

one day, you'll be a successful person and i am no longer meaningful to you. kalau kau berjaya, this is ALL because YOU strive so hard. only YOU and yourself. so let's just do business here. i teach you learn. no hassle from you, we won't give you any. you love and treat us right, we'll love and treat you the same.

if you really feel like "aku nak tukar cikgu! cikgu ni tak best.", deep in our heart, we do wish the same. i wonder if you nak tukar cikgu, bagilah berapa cikgu pun selagi tak dapat puaskan hati semua orang tetap akan wujud this similar complain. so why not opt to the option you yang tukar sekolah. in fact you don't invest any cents to build this school. so why not? because we teachers are also looking forward to turn a new leaf with brand new faces of students who treat us well mutually somewhere but here. cuma peluang tu not easy as a piece of cake. but it is easy for you guys kot. yelah, rasa nak sekolah you all datang. rasa tak puas hati, ade problem you all blah je like that. keluar masuk sekolah sesuka hati bersama ibu bapa korang. and we have to add our workload nak buat surat amaran ponteng segala. yelah, things are easy for you. ade you all pikir how about us? don't think so. if you feel nak balik, you balik. never think of undang-undang skolah and others. tapi cikgu plak kena abide to your "whatever" rules : can't be boring. must be young and pretty always. must be sporting and understanding. never give homework. never give too many work. must not membebel a lot. have to know your stuff - justin bieber, cody simpson, greyson chance, twilight and bla bla bla. never rotan. never scream to you. never disgrace you. accept and tolerate whatever you do - couple, tido dalam kelas, asik pergi klinik sbb malas masuk kelas, nak rehat awal masuk lambat, datang lab terhegeh-hegeh. woo. banyak sangat la to be listed. 

is it fair? BULLSHIT! or what my husband called as bloody hell.

ok better stop now. nanti kena saman pulak. yelah, nowadays people were too enlightened about HAK ASASI. dulu takde binatang ni. sebab tu aku dapat jadi cikgu, lala dapat jadi doktor. 

tak perlu terasa jika entri ini tiada kena mengena dengan anda. babai!