you and us. students and teachers. *entry pedas, jika hati tisu jangan baca.

another entry bout my career. sorry.

today masa pergi makan ngan member, she told me that this teacher, "X"complaint about getting the same class for next year. this X said that the class ade satu 'badi' yang kurang baik lah gitu.. my friend told me that the students of this class daringly mintak nak tukar cikgu yang mengajar subjek tu, just sebab diaorang tak suka cara cikgu tu. i was like, WHAT??

ok fine. i wasn't a good teacher myself. i know ade je students hated me. banyak je yg jeered me from behind. but do i look like i care? hell no. but personally i think tindakan nak mintak tukar cikgu sebab cikgu tu tak best atau tak bagus tu memanglah terlampau KURANG AJAR. i wonder how they could survive life and jd someone successful in life kalau macam ni lah sikapnya. yelah. semua nak kena ikut kehendak and kepala engkau je. go and make jupiter your habitat, that's better.

tak ada cikgu yang perfect. so do you as students. bagus sangat ke korang? if you say that "I'm good because i got 5 A for UPSR and 8 A for PMR", i just want to say "boleh blah" sebab i pun got that kind of results dari dulu and at least i'm better since i'm a graduate. kalau aku tak bagus aku tak masuk universiti. tapi kauorang tu dijamin ke masuk U? pikir-pikirkan. bagus sangat ke korang kalau homework pun tak siap? bagus sangat ke korang kalau buku pun korang takleh hormat; buang macam korang buang pembalut candy? bagus sangat ke kalau dengan cikgu salam pun berat nak bagi? bagus sangat ke kalau arahan cikgu pun korang tak ikut? double pikir ok.

kalau korang cakap "cikgu polan polan tu tak bagus sebab dia ajar tak paham" i think you should ask yourself what is the initial of the problem. personally i have to say you yang BENAK sebab dalam 30 orang classmates you tu, semua gagal ke sebab cikgu tu ajar? kalau you yang tak paham, means you lah bermasalah. ya betul, tak semua students tu kurang pandai. but tak semua cikgu tu bodoh kalau dia ajar you and you tak paham.

i mark exam papers. i know how is the A standard for public examinations. to put it in a simpler way, i have to say this : walaupun kau dapat A, kadang-kadang taraf kau tak capai pun level A (most, not ALL of you la. sapa makan cili rasa pedas, ok). so takyah la songeh sangat kot because the teachers are trying to lift you up from that so-so level to good tapi you think it is a crap just because you hate the teacher's way. noob sangat! i saw teachers study their subjects before they enter class. cikgu yang menjerit-jerit dalam kelas even they can't hit high notes just to make sure semua students dengar apa dia ajar. cikgu yang jerit kuat-kuat so you tak tido dalam kelas, nak capture attention. cikgu bawak masuk lab, tengok movies and videos to make learning interesting. cikgu yang photocopy and still photocopy notes and worksheet for you even you buang-buang je semua tu. cikgu yang mark homework tu walaupun you tak buat homework dia bagi. woohooo... that's big. kalau tak percaya, belajar rajin-rajin nanti jadi cikgu and you'll know what i am bullshitting here. ooohhhh, tu pun if you can tolerate with small salary la. kalau rasa nak hidup mewah, abaikan apa i cakap tadi, shut up and accept who we are.

during that conversation i straight away spit my words to them : "i do believe that a teacher's responsibility is to TEACH and make those kids a successful human, NOT to make them love us. sebab kita manusia and we can't make everyone happy with ourselves. mutual respect is the key. but does REAL mutual respect existed? maaf cakap lah, tahap sivik paling rendah pun kau tak berapa ade, so why do you expect from others to treat you better? aku mengandung dan bawak 4 beg, naik turun tangga. ade anyone OFFER help? don't think so.  kena mintak tolong baru nak tolong. i wonder what if they ride on bus and see a pregnant stranger, sah-sah tak tolong, for sure. so how do you think i should treat you? kiss your ass and fake a sweet smile, give you mountains of compliments for things you don't have. i have to say aku tak kuasa." my friend dah cuak terus tukar topik. well, i have to say i'm a bit emo bout this because i know how it feels to strive sooooo damn hard for the kids and still we are blamed for things we done. so, fine. ok fine, that's life.

guess what. i am just recalling and restating what my mom used to tell me last year. thanks mak, you were damn right. 

tak guna bijak pandai kalau sampah pun cikgu kena remind kau untuk kutip. double noob!

one day, you'll be a successful person and i am no longer meaningful to you. kalau kau berjaya, this is ALL because YOU strive so hard. only YOU and yourself. so let's just do business here. i teach you learn. no hassle from you, we won't give you any. you love and treat us right, we'll love and treat you the same.

if you really feel like "aku nak tukar cikgu! cikgu ni tak best.", deep in our heart, we do wish the same. i wonder if you nak tukar cikgu, bagilah berapa cikgu pun selagi tak dapat puaskan hati semua orang tetap akan wujud this similar complain. so why not opt to the option you yang tukar sekolah. in fact you don't invest any cents to build this school. so why not? because we teachers are also looking forward to turn a new leaf with brand new faces of students who treat us well mutually somewhere but here. cuma peluang tu not easy as a piece of cake. but it is easy for you guys kot. yelah, rasa nak sekolah you all datang. rasa tak puas hati, ade problem you all blah je like that. keluar masuk sekolah sesuka hati bersama ibu bapa korang. and we have to add our workload nak buat surat amaran ponteng segala. yelah, things are easy for you. ade you all pikir how about us? don't think so. if you feel nak balik, you balik. never think of undang-undang skolah and others. tapi cikgu plak kena abide to your "whatever" rules : can't be boring. must be young and pretty always. must be sporting and understanding. never give homework. never give too many work. must not membebel a lot. have to know your stuff - justin bieber, cody simpson, greyson chance, twilight and bla bla bla. never rotan. never scream to you. never disgrace you. accept and tolerate whatever you do - couple, tido dalam kelas, asik pergi klinik sbb malas masuk kelas, nak rehat awal masuk lambat, datang lab terhegeh-hegeh. woo. banyak sangat la to be listed. 

is it fair? BULLSHIT! or what my husband called as bloody hell.

ok better stop now. nanti kena saman pulak. yelah, nowadays people were too enlightened about HAK ASASI. dulu takde binatang ni. sebab tu aku dapat jadi cikgu, lala dapat jadi doktor. 

tak perlu terasa jika entri ini tiada kena mengena dengan anda. babai!