lately, ntah kenapa i do feel really weird. really weird. i just couldn't understand my own feelings. hati ni nak kata tenteram tak jugak. nak kata libang-libu pun tak. ntah. i just couldn't explain.
today result eg tukar keluar. a few friends got transferred. obviously aku memang tak dapat. since this year a few things turned to be unexpected. i didn't get the approval and when i got the on-the-dot transfer offer to kisas, i had to reject it. too bad for me, but come and think of it, my status quo suits me better if i'm here.
lynda is going to be transferred to pahang. sharin pun. ustaz wan najib, fairos, nadrah. gosh. how i wish i'm on the list. when i know lynda is going, i feel very kinky. it is mainly the feeling of happiness, because i know she deserves it. first time i feel this kind of feeling. kongsi kegembiraan kawan. kinky sangat. because i used to be soooo indifferent all these while. lantak lah. but this time, i do feel "yeah, this is the best."
i really wish next year, i will be on their place.
but before my time come, i had to endure years of pain i'm having all these years. complaints and trials and all the sorrow dealing with people who sometimes could be so heartless and brainless. handling rude and irrelevant attitudes. urgh. i wonder if i could be strong for this again. with baby to come. maybe. or maybe not.
hubby tried to patch up my heart by telling me about kursus periuk api in new zealand. he said he MIGHT be going and he wants me to come along. but for sure harapan tidak boleh diletakkan atas kata-kata seorang tentera laut. anything can happen, anything can change within seconds. tapi kalau betul i will be more than over the rainbow! i need a break from this agonising routine and place. oh God i really need it. please...
oh TGIF tomorrow. can't wait for another break. but bacaan yaasin for SPM candidates? urgh... can i escape? hahaha.
i'm bored and my tummy is pounding from inside. gi tido lah mummy. you're writing junks here. booooo. bye!
4 comments:
bestnyer ko dpt offer kisas...mmg sgt dasyat ok,sek agame yg sgt tersohor n smua budak sek aku mmg suka kalau dpt pi blaja sne,kalau mgajar kt sane lg best kot ;)
and lg sgt2 best kalau ko dpt g newzealand, dan itu juga buat aku jelesss tauuuuuuuuu ;p
cheer la slalu my darl, sian anak angkat aku yg dlm perot ko tuh..hiihihihih ;))
yang... aku nk gi, tp keadaan tak mengizinkan la.. takpela biarlah aku rotten kat sini... huhuhuu...
ko taknak tukar?
take care of ur baby kat dlm peroot tu..hehhee
the rest,,,..
let it on Allah decide..
teacher dapat kisas??wow unbelievable...i shall call ustazah la next time...haha
hang in there teacher,i'm quite sad when most of the teachers i know will transferred to another school..huhu...how can i meet them later on?but please teacher don't go..not until i got my SPM certificate...i miss to call u miss shida...
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