This raya brings me to a clearer version of appreciation. How pathetic when you were trying so hard to please hubby with a bulgy stomach then hubby doesn't enjoy all the efforts.
sad. That's what i truly feels. While at the same time i wish my family was here because they appreciate everything that i cook. hub only enjoy eveything that his mom cooks. i know deep in his heart he wants me to cook like his mama. but i can't be that lady.
Hub dislike my signature dish - the nasi ayam that my family loves so much. simply because his mama never cook that. when kak ina brought nasi dagang when she visited me, i can see how passion he was when he had that dish. and that nasi ayam was there. waiting to be rotten. same goes to brownies. i know my brownies broke like volcano. But still it taste good. but i know there's never brownies for their hari raya. useless kan berjaga till 4am to cook and bake but no one appreciate your efforts.
so my raya was spent sleeping while sobbing. simply because i miss my family members. and i feel sad that my new family didn't appreciate what i did to please them. I should be sincere but at times i need reinforcement. mcm dlm education. bila budak perform, kita kena puji and reward them. but ntah la. i need more time to learn more about life obviously. and obviously i can't be like the mom of my hub. i can only take her responsibility. and let me handle my the responsibility my way.
or else guy, marry a girl of your mom's choice. or fine someone who is good in copycatting. sorry i am not good in that.
be happy mummy. baby loves you.
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