i heart my family

what a day full of tears. i felt so alone. after kak Ila paid her visit with Umar, i cleaned my body and heated the food. there's a pot of vinegar soup made by mummy for me yesterday. and a pack of fried rice. how i wish mummy was here - she'll make sure there will be more than 2 dishes on the table, waiting for me. 

fried rice with mango juice. suddenly my tears fell down. i really miss my mom. i swear. i tried to finish all but i just can't. everything seems so tasteless. and my tears just can't stop falling down. i miss everybody in Ipoh. mummy, abah, Lala, Nani. everybody. 

i called mom, tried so hard to conceal my tears. but she knew i was sad. she tried to console me and shared with me all the fuss she was having there. she said i should be considering about my family members who needed her more at this moment. i do also talked to abah. but i can't hide my voice. i miss him too. but he was firm. he didn't say anything so i chose not to talk for long with him. 

i need a companion. non other than my guardian angels. i then called maktok and i just can lie no more. i burst like a baby but she was so soft. her words are full of message and i felt so good. it was quite a long talk, how i wish i could go back to Taiping and spent my first day of Ramadhan there. and talking to wan, just melt my heart. he was like abah, firm but his words comforted me so well. i hung up the phone, still sobbing but i was happy to talk to all those meaningful peeps in my life. 

and now, i am in front of mr. lappy crying while blogging.

it is weekend and how sweet a life will be if we could spend it with family. i got married but marriage doesn't promise a happy life all the time. but under the family's armpit, everything seems so good, so pleasing. when mummy cook for you, all food seems so good even though it is the simplest she could make. life is full when you can tease your siblings and made your dad scream. life is splendid when you have people around you nags and nags even rubbish. yeah, at first you'll get so annoyed, but when you're in my shoe, you'll NEED those blabber. 

be happy shida. for yourself, and for the baby. love you.

memori daun pisang

i know it is too late to show all these but who cares? hehe. just a few sneak peak of pictures from my wedding album.

  

the rings

 solemnisation's night

 with the sword bearer team

 outdoor session

 @Echo Park, Taman Botani, Ipoh

that's all. thank you. :)

... it was so long ago but i still got the blues for you...

oh dang! so long since my last update. loser gile.

i am now happily married to my hub. well, wedded life sometimes isn't as easy and happy as we used to think. i got to adapt to too many situation at a time that sometimes my brain and soul just couldn't take it. such as? adapting to in-law's family. who said it is a piece of cake? hell no kot. simply because they were different from mine. my family is small, their is big. then, mom in law can never be the same as my real mak. being a wife makes me miss her more each and every day.

at the 2nd month of our marriage, not just that i found that i am pregnant, but we were dumbfounded by the news that my hub will be transferred to Mindef in KL. and yet, i got to join the club of my neighbours and friends - married but separated. living alone wasn't as easy when i was too sick to take care of myself. yes, i am still now at the peak of my morning sickness. and it is a torture man! all i can do was to eat and sleep. that's all and urghh! stress kot.

we were now eagerly waiting for the month of september - the only chance to move out of this area and live together again. and i just couldn't wait for august - when my baby reaches 3rd month and my morning sickness will fade away. hooray.

that's all for today. just a piece of update with a hope i'll update more. bubbye!