Agony of a mother

Sorry for the long hiatus. I was called to write after i read about the use of minyak gamat after delivery.

Ok, this entry contains very matured details. Maybe lucah for some people due to age factor. Tp for the sake of sharing why not. Jangan baca if you have insecurities.

I had my baby with normal delivery, with the help of epidural. Not sound heroic la pakai epidural tapi it is for the best not just for me but for my baby. Lepas dapat jab epidural kat tulang belakang, i was so high. All i remember was they asked me to increase the dose if i can't stand the pain. But i was smart enough to leave some space for pain when the time has come so that i feel what is the real contraction pain. All i know i keep on pushing so hard sampai terkeluar buasir tetiba anak dah ada atas dada. After a few minutes dia cucuk ubat kecutkan rahim kat peha and dia cakap nak jahit. I was like, what??

Nurse cakap "ada gunting sikit". And seriously i tak rasa apa apa masa digunting tu. Tapi masa jahit seriously sakit. Walaupun still epidural effect is still there.

Bayangkan. Part of your body kena gunting. And yet before i give birth that was the only thing i was scared of. Selalu kakak-kakak yang dah bersalin bagitahu jangan takut sebab tak rasa (because the contraction pain is everything at that time)

Luka disitu kena 6 jahitan. Tapi jahitannya alhamdulillah cantik sebab senior matron yang buat.

I had to stay 3 days at the hosp sebab kamal kena jaundice. Susahnya hidup masa tu. Nak jaga jahitan dan anak pada masa yang sama dalam keadaan tak biasa. Memang susah.

Balik rumah. Selepas 5 hari salah satu jahitan sikit terbuka. Masa tu mmg sakit. Rasa seram sejuk nak demam semua ada. Sebelum tu nurse tak bagi cuci ngan air suam and air garam or air apa apa. Just cuci dengan air biasa. Actually dalam recovery process tu takde lah sakit cuma seriau. Tapi bila terbuka mmg sakit.

At that time i just don't believe what nurse said. Yelah. Nak baikkan jaundice diaorg tak bagi jemur tapi kamal punya bacaan kuning makin naik. Asik suruh susukan badan. I did but nothing much changed. So maktok jemur pagi pagi, mandikan dengan air buah keranda alhamdulillah turun.

So i did what maktok asked me to do. Pakai minyak gamat dan air buah manjakani. I did and thank God. Speedy recovery. Sapu pada tempat luka. At that time i don't think of infections or whatso ever. And atas sebab nak baik cepat bagi je air gamat yang bau macam air longkang and pati ikan haruan yang rasa hanyir tu semua aku telan.

Confinement period is fill with pain at first. Difficulties form the middle to the end. Difficult sebab banyak sangat kena buat dan takleh buat.

Sampai sekarang bila cakap pasal kesakitan lepas bersalin, i still feel it. Ngeri. Ngilu. Semua ada. I just don't know when i'll be ready for the next baby.

Now i know why a mother is a super human.