kawin dulu baru tahu

It destroys one's nerves to be amiable every day to the same human being.
- Benjamin Disraeli

yup.it is true. who says that marriage could be forever sweet? hell no! mesti orang tu belum kawin tapi asyik memikirkan tentang a perfect wedding - that she/he will be and somehow will try the hardest to be a perfect partner for her spouse. well siapa tak nak camtu? everybody wants to be happy but life isn't always at the peak of everything at every time. ada masa kita rasa kita dah buat the best tapi things turned out differently.

marriage combines too many things in it. sbb tu marriage for me could be so complicated at times. sometimes bila banyak sangat benda kita nak handle dan jaga we'll lose grip over a few things. mana kan nak juggle dengan diri sendiri dan persekitaran lagi. sebab tu ade married partner akan gaduh over very silly thing basically sebab something yang silly pada you might be something enormous to the other half. complicated sangat nak explain tapi that is what a married couple is facing through out their marriage.

personally my marriage is happy. my husband loves me so much i know and i love him too. but as i said above tak setiap masa kita happy kan. ada masa kita gurau2 and gelak guling2 bersama tapi lepas tu ade blast and we both do not talk for hours. *sigh... at times i just wish i was still his fiancee at this hour because masa bertunang semuanya manis far far better than sugar. tapi bila dah kawin yang manis tu kadang-kadang tak jd manis pun. lagi teruk bila ia bertukar menjadi bunga tahi. *what's bunga tahi? well this is a phrase usually used by my mom and granny yg bermaksud something yg sweet at first tapi jadi buruk at the end. bunga = cantik. tahi = buruk sbb tu bunga dtg dulu sblm tahi.

maybe org akan cakap "sabar weh" tak pun "sapa suh kawin awal" or "relax la takyah pikir." hmm whatever... P. Ramlee once said in his song - "sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit apa pula suami isteri." but korang suka ke kalau tergigit lidah? rasanya best ke macam makan rojak petis? kadang kadang sampai berdarah kot siap lepas tu tumbuh ulcer lagi. ya ya akan baik. nak cepat guna bonjela. tapi in marriage what could be the bonjela? our parents? or perhaps reminiscing the good old days? sometimes it works sometimes it is not - macam bonjela jugak kan. tapi apa pun yang jadi bonjelanya with God's will everything will turn as what He wants it to be. so redha jelah.

tapi ade jugak yang tak guna bonjela eventually the wound akan baik. kuasa Allah. but it takes time. so let the time decides what will happen to us.

1st meeting and date. the day we declared as bf-gf

1st jalan-jalan to zoo. konon nak kenal lebih la.

sedang bercinta. semua manis except bila dia kena pergi sailing.

gambar 1st i gave him and he loves it. masih ada dalam wallet and purse masing masing.

1st sword barrier together @ seri kembangan. on the way nak bertunang sebab lepas habis event ni terus pegi beli cincin tunang and barang-barang hantaran tunang.

the day of CNY 4/2/2011. we were both engaged.

 

kawin day. 

honeymoon

i might need to see this again and again. siapa tahu my heart melt and i'll forget everything. 

goodbye!