this blog need to stay sober in order to survive. *if you know what i mean.
i don't give a damn if you think my blog is such a dull one. who cares?
i need my blog to make sure that may English stay green. you won't know that.
i'm not asking for any follower because having a blog was now a form of practice, no longer a form of freedom like the previous one. and if you think i bore you, please go away.
never meant to be mean any longer. i just want to talk about myself. no more about others. i used to be very opinionated, but as time passes by, i started to realize it is better to keep the conjectures inside. safer and less imbroglio.
i am a boring person. bid me goodbye. i don't care. :)
Sunday, March 27, 2011
bore.
at last this week i managed to STAY at home for more than 24 hours. at that moment i can feel that i am full with the housewife's mood. woooho. what a cool feeling.
i was suppose to party like a star with mommy and others. but what a wrecked dream. mak went back to taiping while i was about to surprise her with something a few more hours later. i still had to go back since future hub needs the wedding ring.
2 hours of driving, less sugar red bull has been my best friend all along the week. at last, ipoh i'm back. but for the first time, feeling so alone at home. i got the feeling of going here and there at first. but after mr. hub left for kelantan, and i was really alone, i lost the verve. i just went to ria moda due to a very important business but the time i stepped home, i really felt like i belong there. no more mood to go out. what so not Roshida.
that house was so empty without mak and adik. :( how i wish i can go back to bagan datoh now, but i was too tired. i miss mak.
saturday i was here and bagan datoh. again, i felt boring. what is this?
gila. everywhere and boring. urgh.
i was suppose to party like a star with mommy and others. but what a wrecked dream. mak went back to taiping while i was about to surprise her with something a few more hours later. i still had to go back since future hub needs the wedding ring.
2 hours of driving, less sugar red bull has been my best friend all along the week. at last, ipoh i'm back. but for the first time, feeling so alone at home. i got the feeling of going here and there at first. but after mr. hub left for kelantan, and i was really alone, i lost the verve. i just went to ria moda due to a very important business but the time i stepped home, i really felt like i belong there. no more mood to go out. what so not Roshida.
that house was so empty without mak and adik. :( how i wish i can go back to bagan datoh now, but i was too tired. i miss mak.
saturday i was here and bagan datoh. again, i felt boring. what is this?
gila. everywhere and boring. urgh.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
driving lorries
i really wanted to write about this for long. and it keeps on playing on my mind each time i was driving.
sometimes i wish lorries do not exist on the road. *sigh. but i can't deny how important a lorry to people. perhaps i should change my statement : i wish ignorant lorry drivers do not exist on the road.
at times, i really need to rush. really need to. such as driving to school or going for a long journey back to my hometown, and this vehicle can only go up to 80kmph. i just can't stand but to cut off to other lane. but how can i possibly do that even though there are no cars coming from other lane; if there are 5 lorries driving so close to each other? or in malay word - beremba. at least if they set distance, people like me can do it slowly and safely for sure.
some drivers got so tensed up when i cut them off. why? i just could not understand. you're big but slow. so let the small swift me go first. some lorries try to come across me back after i cut them off. haha. i just go speechless. sometimes they spotlighted me and i swear i hate that. but i can't bother. step on the throttle to the fullest and bubbye!
this one. i really can't stand. big, heavy lorries are slow. they go like 40kmph, the fastest and THEY ARE ON THE RIGHT LANE. what is that? am i in America? come on... i bet we all learned that slow cars meant to be on the left side of the lanes. i wish i drove big foot and i can just hit those vehicle with inconsiderate driver. *sigh...
it is dangerous when we were too fast. but it is also a danger if we go too slow.
peace no war. lovesss.
sometimes i wish lorries do not exist on the road. *sigh. but i can't deny how important a lorry to people. perhaps i should change my statement : i wish ignorant lorry drivers do not exist on the road.
at times, i really need to rush. really need to. such as driving to school or going for a long journey back to my hometown, and this vehicle can only go up to 80kmph. i just can't stand but to cut off to other lane. but how can i possibly do that even though there are no cars coming from other lane; if there are 5 lorries driving so close to each other? or in malay word - beremba. at least if they set distance, people like me can do it slowly and safely for sure.
some drivers got so tensed up when i cut them off. why? i just could not understand. you're big but slow. so let the small swift me go first. some lorries try to come across me back after i cut them off. haha. i just go speechless. sometimes they spotlighted me and i swear i hate that. but i can't bother. step on the throttle to the fullest and bubbye!
this one. i really can't stand. big, heavy lorries are slow. they go like 40kmph, the fastest and THEY ARE ON THE RIGHT LANE. what is that? am i in America? come on... i bet we all learned that slow cars meant to be on the left side of the lanes. i wish i drove big foot and i can just hit those vehicle with inconsiderate driver. *sigh...
it is dangerous when we were too fast. but it is also a danger if we go too slow.
peace no war. lovesss.
English's doom day
what a gloomy day. yes, today is the day when the result of SPM came out. early in the morning i heard rumors saying that our school got 1st in Hilir Perak and 4th in Perak. never believe rumours until it is proven true.
i was doing nothing but snapping dramatic photos of the kids. all i can do was browsing the slips, that is not what i wanted to do. i want to know the results for English. i wish the kids did well. but the analysis wasn't out that time. that's when i know the agony of waiting. oh yes, the rumours was proven true. congrats SABDA.
browsing the slips. i see quite numbers of A. ahh, that wasn't what i'm looking for. but i saw quite a lot of c too, especially from my class - ABT and ABI. what the fart? C is unacceptable! i guess i can go with B but not C. gosh. i started to feel bad. and that bad feeling went throughout the bad day.
17 got C and C+. when only 2 got C from SOKSEK. what a HUGE disappointment i got today. it feels like a smack on my head and i still can feel the painful vibrant. i hate it, i hate the result.
at first i don't know who to be blamed. am i wrong for not being a great teacher to my kids? but i am just a newbie. that reason is not gonna help. sejarah has new teachers but the students did well. or should i blame the kids themselves? they're just not into my subject perhaps. but what if they have done and gave their best?
in the end, i made up my heart. i was wrong. i wasn't doing the right thing for others.
i have stopped cursing quite long ago. but today my mouth seems unstoppable. too many bad words came out from it. and yes they are all for me. blame me for everything kids.
i need an escapade. i need my fiance. but he's down too; due to some heartbreaking news from the boss. ok now this is what i call a DOOM day.
viva, i want you right now. take me away to somewhere else. i just can't look at the students anymore. in fact, there's no use of showing myself to them. there's no use to see miss Shida anymore.
Greatest God of all. heal my pain, please. :(
i was doing nothing but snapping dramatic photos of the kids. all i can do was browsing the slips, that is not what i wanted to do. i want to know the results for English. i wish the kids did well. but the analysis wasn't out that time. that's when i know the agony of waiting. oh yes, the rumours was proven true. congrats SABDA.
browsing the slips. i see quite numbers of A. ahh, that wasn't what i'm looking for. but i saw quite a lot of c too, especially from my class - ABT and ABI. what the fart? C is unacceptable! i guess i can go with B but not C. gosh. i started to feel bad. and that bad feeling went throughout the bad day.
17 got C and C+. when only 2 got C from SOKSEK. what a HUGE disappointment i got today. it feels like a smack on my head and i still can feel the painful vibrant. i hate it, i hate the result.
at first i don't know who to be blamed. am i wrong for not being a great teacher to my kids? but i am just a newbie. that reason is not gonna help. sejarah has new teachers but the students did well. or should i blame the kids themselves? they're just not into my subject perhaps. but what if they have done and gave their best?
in the end, i made up my heart. i was wrong. i wasn't doing the right thing for others.
i have stopped cursing quite long ago. but today my mouth seems unstoppable. too many bad words came out from it. and yes they are all for me. blame me for everything kids.
i need an escapade. i need my fiance. but he's down too; due to some heartbreaking news from the boss. ok now this is what i call a DOOM day.
viva, i want you right now. take me away to somewhere else. i just can't look at the students anymore. in fact, there's no use of showing myself to them. there's no use to see miss Shida anymore.
Greatest God of all. heal my pain, please. :(
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
movie date
hikayat merong mahawangsa.
sounds big. i heard peeps talking about how great this movie is. and i've read one saying that it is a flop. when i first read the negative comment about this movie, i was telling myself that no matter how great a local movie is, some of our local people still didn't appreciate that. hm, what to do. different people have different taste.
one fine date we made up our mind to watch this movie. not many people were there in the cine. perhaps they've watch it earlier i guess. the movie went on but can only captured my attention for just 20minutes. i started to get bored. gosh.
it was so cold inside the dark chamber, and it was biting me to the bone. my restlessness kept on going more. it was not just the environment that doesn't support me, but i have to come clean here, the storyline was quite boring (for me). i though i was the only one. but i peeped on my date and i can see he was showing a bored face too. and he said "boring lah cite ni."
we came to a conclusion. never watch an epic movie on a date.
**how's big momma house eh? i really wanna watch it!
*i'm not a movie critic. sorry if i can't give a constructive one
Monday, March 21, 2011
the sweetest years of life.
ecah popo. myra. nur ili shamimi. ain mahasan. woon tian fook - those i spent my uni life with
limbo rocking. hiking in taman negara penang. walking to night market. brisk walking around the lake - things i do with my bff.
yahoo messaging. but obviously i have no mood rush on this. but still i miss ym-ing.
koey tiaw tomyam with twist of sambal belacan. burning hot but cool! mmg cirit after that.
queensbay mall. i wonder how awesome this place now.
marching on saturday morning. attending lecture but skipping titas class. doing assignments. i miss my lecturers.
lepak at khaleel watching football. walking up and down restu saujana hill at 2 am.
nasi kandar subaidah - fried chicken, fried squids, fried fish. all fried things here are bombs!
waiting for the bus in front of dewan budaya. at last end up walking to sungai dua.
i miss my previous life. broke but contented.
i miss u usm.
limbo rocking. hiking in taman negara penang. walking to night market. brisk walking around the lake - things i do with my bff.
yahoo messaging. but obviously i have no mood rush on this. but still i miss ym-ing.
koey tiaw tomyam with twist of sambal belacan. burning hot but cool! mmg cirit after that.
queensbay mall. i wonder how awesome this place now.
marching on saturday morning. attending lecture but skipping titas class. doing assignments. i miss my lecturers.
lepak at khaleel watching football. walking up and down restu saujana hill at 2 am.
nasi kandar subaidah - fried chicken, fried squids, fried fish. all fried things here are bombs!
waiting for the bus in front of dewan budaya. at last end up walking to sungai dua.
i miss my previous life. broke but contented.
i miss u usm.
Friday, March 18, 2011
sempurna - andra and the backbone.
this song really reminds me of my tunang. one fine day we were in his car. i was tired and suddenly he screamed. i was shocked. then he made hand signals. i could not understand what is he trying to convey. nak marah gak la masa tu. then he said, "lagu ni utk syg."
ewah tetiba romantik pulak. weird weird. anyhow, thanks a lot dear. it was HUGE for me even though it's weird.
i miss you so much dear. i wish i could scream and transmit the frequencies into your sleep and turn them into a dream. so you'll know.
good night hun. i'll be the most understanding woman you have ever met. i will do.
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