i was doing nothing but snapping dramatic photos of the kids. all i can do was browsing the slips, that is not what i wanted to do. i want to know the results for English. i wish the kids did well. but the analysis wasn't out that time. that's when i know the agony of waiting. oh yes, the rumours was proven true. congrats SABDA.
browsing the slips. i see quite numbers of A. ahh, that wasn't what i'm looking for. but i saw quite a lot of c too, especially from my class - ABT and ABI. what the fart? C is unacceptable! i guess i can go with B but not C. gosh. i started to feel bad. and that bad feeling went throughout the bad day.
17 got C and C+. when only 2 got C from SOKSEK. what a HUGE disappointment i got today. it feels like a smack on my head and i still can feel the painful vibrant. i hate it, i hate the result.
at first i don't know who to be blamed. am i wrong for not being a great teacher to my kids? but i am just a newbie. that reason is not gonna help. sejarah has new teachers but the students did well. or should i blame the kids themselves? they're just not into my subject perhaps. but what if they have done and gave their best?
in the end, i made up my heart. i was wrong. i wasn't doing the right thing for others.
i have stopped cursing quite long ago. but today my mouth seems unstoppable. too many bad words came out from it. and yes they are all for me. blame me for everything kids.
i need an escapade. i need my fiance. but he's down too; due to some heartbreaking news from the boss. ok now this is what i call a DOOM day.
viva, i want you right now. take me away to somewhere else. i just can't look at the students anymore. in fact, there's no use of showing myself to them. there's no use to see miss Shida anymore.
Greatest God of all. heal my pain, please. :(
2 comments:
ape laa teacher....
don't keep blaming urself....
its not ur fault that some of us got C or C+ for english....no wonder la x sya x nmpak teacher kat skolah...its quite bored teacher when u not there with us....sya dtg pun kul 12 tgh ari ngan ali...
nek bas departed from bukit jalil straight to T.I...but when we arrived,u not there to share with us the moment being there....*sigh
hehe. next time we'll meet again. i just don't have any mood that day. sorry that you have to come all along the way but we can't meet. :( anyway, congratulations for your A in english.
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