yahoo messenger's bullshit

i screwed up. i started to hate what i have done. and i think this is the moment to really put a stop to it. i am hurting myself and i might hurt some others too. 

my husband is now busy with his job escorting US navy officers along their trip here. for the first time ever we both tak message during the day and earlier part of evening. adoi sumpah i bosan sumpah i bosan. i need u hubby...

nak kurangkan bosan and cengkonon nak buat i lupa that my hubby is too busy not to ignore me; instead of fb-ing ngan blogging i was actually trying to console myself "please la shida tanda lah essay tu banyak lagi kot...."  but donno why la this hati is damn kering i buat bodoh je and terus online. *pfft. so i was thinking ape nak buat eh? fb dah bosan blogging pun dah so tetiba popped out ym. gile. dah almost a year i tak ym u ols. dulu ni lah medium nak in contact with those people yang jauh di mata dekat di hati dan sebagainya bla bla bla. ingat lagi masa duduk meru heights i have no internet connection then curi2 pakai line pakcik kamal umah sebelah semata2 nak chat ngan buat hati PADA MASA ITU. 

tapi pas buah hati dah busuk pastu pokok dah berbuah lain i stop ym-ing. mr hub pulak jenis sms-ing je smpai jari jariku sakit semua kerna bekerja sehari2 *singing to Aishah's song. tp ok lah tak sia sia la i tukar from maxis to celcom pakai prepaid balik mcm zaman sekolah pakai henfon gabak besar mcm walkie talkie. tak sia sia as i am now a proud wife with a getting-bigger-and-bigger tummy. 

but that's not the point. balik ke intro entry ni. ape yg i screwed up? i screwed up sbb i started chatting pastu tetiba boleh plak ter-reminisce kenangan dulu. ciiiiipannnnn-zee. bodoh bodoh bodoh. dislike dislike dislikeee what i've done. i really feel guilty for my husband. and my tummy started to feel painful. maybe anak i pun tak suka what i was doing that time. seriously shida you NEED TO STOP THIS BULL'S POOP. no more next time no moreeee! esok i taknak dah bukak yahoo and all i want to do is menanda kertas sampai gile. 

wish me luck. argh esok meeting pulak nyampah!

*ape entry ni? biol.

babai!