the realm of growing up

seeing kids nowadays grow up, sometimes i ponder; how they really want to be the grown ups. the way they dress, the gadgets they hold, the personalities. all. 

i consider these kids as lucky. they were born with silver spoon in their mouth. did i sound green in envy? hell no! i was more lucky as i was born seeing how hard my abah worked to feed us and how hard he wanted us to pursue our studies in IPTA. i guess for some people that might sound like a short dream. but who cares? i am a career woman now and my dad is a big shot and i am proud of myself and my dad. i am proud to see how hard he strive to be in his position right now. 

after all years of struggling, i realised the meaning of life. life isn't always like soap dramas in tv. but far far more complicated. hard, but Allah know how far we can go. sometimes it looks a bit awkward to see how kids nowadays grow. but life evolves. perhaps one day they'll be like me; blogging while reminiscing about how great is a teenage life and it'll be greater to spend it in such a humble way - the way a teenager should be; broke but happy. 

i do believe that love should start at this point. this is the phase we'll be at the peak of our poyo level, but we'll never realise it. and growing up makes us see how "overwhelmed" we can be when it comes to love. but it is a good trial. we'll never learn about love till our first break up. the more bf/gf you have, the more knowledge you'll have about love. so do life. so at this age, you might have all the gadgets and you can google about almost everything, but not experience. 

but i could never forgive what teenagers have done to the language. bowink, aquwh, windoo, cayunk. oh wtfart? please stop it! it sounds moron. languages that we have now are beautiful enough, it doesn't need any alteration. if you're thinking of being creative, create a new language that has nothing related to the existing languages. as a language peeps, i'm against the violation of either English or even Malay. 

oops. mood swings sometimes. teehee... :D 

oh, i need to sleep by now. tomorrow i'm working. and working wakes me up from the dream of an ideal life. life isn't easy when you're working and in love. others, you still can be in control. trust me. i'm talking based on my personal EXPERIENCE. i wish i could stop growing old. not because of any wrinkle-phobic or whatever. but i wish i won't be here to hold this much responsibilities and it keeps growing up each time the clock ticks. 

everybody would want to be the 1st stage Dora - cute and adorable, innocent and lovely no matter if we fart a lot.